You would have been 15 years old today Java. Happy birthday girl. Missing you.

I wish you could know how much we still miss you girl. Maybe you do. A day doesn't go by we don't think of you.

Thinking of you pupper. Always will.

Not here but everywhere
Not now but always
Alone but never lonely
Never apart
Empty heart full

There aren't any words girl. Love you pupper.

How we missed you in Colorado girl. It just wasn't the same without you. Your mother wrote some really nice words about you for the Parade of Veterans. After everyone had their time in the ring, they read them out loud. I think you would have liked it.

And another

This one is for you girl.

Java

Hey there girl. It's been more than a week since we've said good-bye. It is still difficult. I picked up your ashes the day before yesterday. We'll find some nice places to spread them. I was thinking of the ocean of course; and the Woodland trail of course. And Marys Peak. And I'll do a solo run up McCulloch some time and leave you there too. And Peavy Peak. I know you were never there, but think you'd like it. There will be deer, coyotes, cougars and maybe the occasional bear to keep you company. I miss you so much girl. You are forever loved pupper.

Java

Dec 25, 1998 – July 28, 2013

Goodbye Java. We love you girl and miss you so much already. Thanks for being a part of our lives. Thanks for all the love. The licks and the hugs. Thanks for the companionship and the running.  The walks on the beach and in the forest. Thanks for protecting and guarding us. Thanks for all the greetings when we'd come home. You were such a wonderful girl. There aren't any words to tell you how much you meant to us. But I hope you know. We were so, so lucky to have you in our lives. I can't tell you how much it hurts now that you are gone. We will always miss you girl. We will carry you forever in our hearts.

 

The Great Escape

Listen

Close your eyes
Listen to the sound
The sounds around you, near and far
Just listen.
Where is your edge in this sound
Where is your boundary
Where in this sound do you end and everything else begins?

Always remember

"Always remember there was nothing worth sharing,
Like the love that let us share our name"
Avett Brothers

Walking on a forest trail

Walking on a forest trail,
I am walking through myself.
All of this is me, and I am all of it.
The boundary between us is an illusion,
As am I.

Of Monsters and Men

Transatlanticism

Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your
Door have been silenced forevermore

Bird Never Flies

For everything that is taken, something is given. You just have to look for it, and accept it for what it is.

The Gloaming by Jonae

Hoppipolla

Gratitude

Everything will be alright ... honest :)

My hand reached to push the botton,
Delete,
That would cause the end of it all,
Stopped by her voice,
Not heard in years,
Pulled back from the brink.

Ólafur Arnalds - Ljósið

Death Cab for Cutie